Now that the dust has settled and Aries Season is now over, it’s time to reflect and share why I did not want to celebrate my birthday. See we have this perception, this vision for ourselves that at a certain age we should be should be at a certain space in our lives. Then reality sets in.
I was dreading the whole month of April because that’s my birth month. I’m usually always excited and counting down to my holiday but not this year. I didn’t tell anyone I was feeling blah about my birthday either. People would ask me if I had birthday plans and I would just say I was too busy working two jobs and I have evening classes.
Every year the days before our birthday my sister and I bring in our birthday at a bar and this year I didn’t want to, main reason I had class til 9:30 and I would be exhausted.
At the last-minute I said to myself I don’t want any shoutouts , no acknowledgement, I don’t want to be put on the spot, so I deactivated my Instagram and Facebook for 24 hours. I was on vacation from my main job for the whole week so all I did was sleep in and be lazy until my class at 5:30pm.
The morning of my birthday my mom refused to let me sleep the day away. We spent the day together shopping and she told me the story of when she found out she was pregnant with me at 19 and how I changed her life for the better. Check out my vlog to hear it. My class ended up being cancelled at 4:30pm, my mom had bought me a cake and my brothers came over and we had dinner. I then decided I would call up a few friends and go to one of my favorite bars and have some drinks and enjoy myself.
The reason I just did not want to celebrate or acknowledge my birthday was because I felt I haven’t accomplished a lot thus far and I feel like a apart for me is stuck doing the same thing. I’m still a work in progress, we all are. My mom told me “…don’t be unhappy there are people who didn’t make it to see another birthday.”
Here I am single for 4 years, I haven’t been on a real vacation in about 3 years. I dislike my main job because of course it’s not what I want to do long-term. It’s easier to point out the negative things. But also here I am, I found my calling, making women feel beautiful and confident by doing their makeup and recommending skin care products to have healthy glowing skin. I’m enrolled in beauty school and I have 6 weeks left and I’m paying for it all on my own aside from a little financial aid. My blog and YouTube channel are thriving, brands have started to reach out to me for collaborations organically.
Age is a number it shouldn’t dictate how you feel or as if it’s too late to live your best life. Tomorrow is not guaranteed. Live life and be kind to others.